Thursday, June 11, 2015

Week 34


I kinda feel like I don't have to write ANYthing after you see this photo. I mean, look at me! 34 weeks and completely huge!  I don't know if you can tell, but my nose has grown. Like, straight up big nose. Is that even a thing?!

I must admit though, I don't feel this big. It actually shocked me when I saw this image from someone else's perspective. I just look down and see a belly, and I can kinda see it in the mirror, although we don't own a full length mirror. (Probably a good thing)

My body just grows little by little each day, and then one day, BAM! I have a hard heavy beach ball on the front of me and I'm like, where did that come from?!

Ya know, those videos that show men putting on pregnant suits and wearing them for an hour, or even a day, are very amusing.  They are not that fair though. I didn't just wake up this big and feeling kicks in one day. It's been a (very) slow process. I think it's super funny to watch them, but poor guys don't even get a chance to get used to it!

So, here I am...haven't been blogging for a number of weeks. I have no excuse. It's like the less I have to do, the less I want to do ANYthing.  I am very fortunate to not be working, but I think this whole "resting" thing has made it so I don't want to do things that people who are resting should be doing...like reading, writing, or getting the house ready. I am just straight up sleeping all day and eating when I'm awake. Sorry everyone for waiting so long. Pure laziness.

Our babies are doing GREAT! They are both around 5 lbs and moving a lot! Every ultrasound has been positive.  The doctors and ultrasound techs are very impressed at my long torso. They say they have never seen twins NOT be squished together in there. They have their heads together in the middle of my belly and baby girl is breech going down and baby boy is head down with his bottom up!

Straight Yin Yangin'

They even said that the boys head is on the girls belly.  CUTE ALERT

It is pretty cool, although every once in a while I wish they were squished more, because they will kick me in the pelvis and in the ribs at the same time. I really love that. I just have to straighten my body and hope it stops.

I'm not sure this is a sensation that I really want to remember, or to happen again. It is pretty intense.

So, with baby girl (yeah we know her name, no we're not telling) being breech it looks like unless she flips it will be an automatic C-Section.  The doctors didn't say she couldn't flip, but they didn't tell me to hold out hope for it either. I'm thinking she has run out of room, but anything can happen! Nothing is final! We will just pray for her to flip, and if she doesn't then it was the way my birth was supposed to happen, and that is just fine with me.

Although I am all about birthing the natural way, and if baby girl flips I will do that if I can, I have to say that having a scheduled C-Section doesn't actually sound that bad either.  What I am most afraid of going into labor is all of the unknowns.

How long is it going to take? Back labor? 36 hours? Epidural? No Epidural? Ripping? Episiotomy? Pushing forever? What if, what if, what if.

With a C-Section, although it is a surgery and I will have to recover, I kinda know what to expect.
Go in this room, put on this gown, we're giving you this drug, it will be over at this time, you will recover in this amount of time, etc.

I know, nothing is the same for everyone, but I feel ok with either way of birthing my babies. Whatever is the most safe for them and for me.

I am NOT wrapped up in the "This is the best way to give labor, other ways are not" mentality. As long as I have my 2 babies safe in my arms, they can come whatever way they want. I really hope I am never caught judging another woman's labor. YUCK. Not my story, not my place to talk about it. It causes so much unnecessary damage to comment on (criticize) labor and motherhood.  Let's be honest, it's going to be hard and we're all going to do it a different way. There.

Hey, I'm having a contraction right now!

Just a braxton hicks...don't worry.

So, basically, babies could come anytime now. They are totally full grown and safe to come out. In about a week and a half I will be full term, and anytime after that is a bonus.

If I go into labor, they will check to see if she's still breech. If she is we'll go ahead into the operating room. If not, we labor.  Please just pray that it is safe, not stressful, and the babies get everything they need to come with me as soon as they can.

I can't wait to introduce them by name!

I'm contracting again! It has been longer for me though, then for you reading this. I stopped to watch an Ellen youtube video and cry. That's real life. Thanks for reading!

April and He and She who shall remain nameless (for now)